Noticing When Healing Stopped Arguing What if healing isn’t what we’ve been taught to expect? Living with CRPS opened a different possibility for me—one where listening replaced fixing, and permission mattered more than perfection.
Noticing Morning, With Waiting Tenderness sharpens when permanence isn’t assumed. When attention leaves timelines and returns to the body, what remains is simple: love, aliveness, and this moment— without urgency.
Story What We Saw They were watching the same thing. Each was certain they had paid attention. Later, alone, each remembered something else.
Noticing The Place That Didn’t Ask She arrived prepared, but the place did not ask for readiness. It was already complete. She stayed longer than she meant to.
Story Challenging Assumptions (Without Knowing Where They Are) Assumptions don’t usually announce themselves. They feel like reality. So instead of trying to challenge them directly, I’ve started noticing where they quietly leave clues.
Noticing Two Poems on Darkness and Recognition The dark does not oppose the light. It prepares the eye. These poems explore rest, contrast, and recognition—how sleep teaches listening, and how waking arrives not by force, but because the ground remembers how to answer.
RSP-Field Notes The Surprise That Taught Me Something Sometimes growth doesn’t feel like effort or insight. Sometimes it feels like surprise—followed by relief—when I realize I no longer have to do the thing I once thought was necessary.
RSP-Essays The Peace That Doesn’t Wait Peace is not treated as a reward for resolution. It is understood as a condition that can arise when participation in a distorting field pattern ends.
Lived Experience The Peace That Didn’t Wait I found peace—not because things resolved, but because I stopped participating in a story that required me to disappear in order to survive.
RSP-Essays When Fixing Becomes Regulation Fixing often speaks in the language of care, but functions as regulation. When discomfort cannot be held where it arises, the field seeks relief by moving it—into advice, improvement, or correction.
RSP-Field Notes Where the Discomfort Goes When discomfort rises and doesn’t know where to land, it looks for somewhere else to go. A mess in one place becomes a problem in another. Unease inside one body becomes something to fix in someone else. I’m learning that not every feeling needs to be moved, and not every unease is an instruction.
RSP-Field Notes Blessing Is Not Fixing A reflection on the difference between fixing and blessing—and what becomes visible when presence is offered without hierarchy.
RSP-Field Notes The Missing Middle I noticed a tension arise while listening to a teaching on balance and non-reactivity. Not because it felt wrong — but because something essential was missing. This field note explores the space between suppression and integration, and why feeling belongs inside awakening.
